my life, my story ;p

Just wondering...

2011-06-08T09:32:00.005+07:00

Same squelching blood in veins, same part of DNA, and same facial resemblance don't always mean anything. Especially when they grew up in places different to each other, with different people and habit. One see what the other don't see, while the other see what one don't see. They're binded by their own mind and thoughts, blinded by ego and emotion. Each one's idealistic, strangely contrary to each other.

Letter to you...

2011-06-08T00:09:00.008+07:00

There were times when heart befriended with doubts, uncertainty, and fear. For the gazillionth time it appeared in human mind. The bad feeling, uncontrolled thoughts, or the fear of losing were included possibility that considered as something that might be the insider encounters for ourselves. Frankly, there's no guarantee in life that we'll live freely without it. However, that didn't always have bad meaning, instead it explained why life's not about enjoying goods and problem-less life, instead, life's about hiking to the highest mountain and being proud and grateful to what currently we have. So, certainly it's common and most likely natural to feel not good enough or realizing that something's wrong. Because in the end it'll become a sign that kindly give you direction where to go or about what to do. You'll realize that it's not about what you were or what you are, but it's about what you want to be. Your destination's the most important part of yourself. No matter from where you start, no matter how bad you are, if there's any lit of light inside your heart then there's hope. Yeah, I know I'm not the right person to tell you this, I'm no perfect, and probably this should be addressed to myself. However that's not the point I'm writing this letter. What I want to say is that I do believe in you, wholeheartedly :)

Chapter II

2011-06-07T23:32:00.006+07:00

Yes it was B.S. saying that I won't make any post here anymore

Anyway, welcome to the next chapter of my blog...

Check this out guys!

2010-05-27T14:23:00.015+07:00

Hey guys, please come and visit my tumblr blog. now on i keep on working and writing about my interests; especially music and photography, sudden emerged thoughts, crazy contemplation, or anything like another simple things that normal people would like to post on their blog. well feel free to click this link, see ya next time btw

www.youthwave.tumblr.com

secondlifeticket.blogspot.com

2010-01-13T02:45:00.008+07:00

I'm no longer writing and updating this blog anymore

I've made the new one, La Seconda

www.secondlifeticket.blogspot.com

feel free to visit :D

Pre

2010-01-12T13:55:00.003+07:00

Hello again people,

It's been a long time since I post my last blog. lately i found that i'm no longer have interest to keep working on this blog. Don't know why, dont know how, dont ask me. i just feel that i need a new piece of paper to tip all of my new thoughts to a writings or something. so, i think i'm gonna make a new blog, with different URL of course. And when the time is right i'll tell you what it is and where you can access it. see ya!

Loves,

tamiyuwono

2009-11-15T14:49:00.006+07:00

" Some people live for the fortune
Some people live just for the fame
Some people live for the power
Some people live just to play the game
Some people think that the physical thing,
defines what's within
And I've been there before
But that life's a bore
So full of the superficial "

Kahlil Gibran's

2009-11-01T07:31:00.009+07:00

Beauty

Where shall you seek beauty, and how shall you find her unless she herself be your way and your guide?
And how shall you speak of her except she be the weaver of your speech?

The aggrieved and the injured say, "Beauty is kind and gentle. Like a young mother half-shy of her own glory she walks among us."

And the passionate say, "Nay, beauty is a thing of might and dread. Like the tempest she shakes the earth beneath us and the sky above us."

The tired and the weary say, "Beauty is of soft whisperings. She speaks in our spirit. Her voice yields to our silences like a faint light that quivers in fear of the shadow."

But the restless say, "We have heard her shouting among the mountains, And with her cries came the sound of hoofs, and the beating of wings and the roaring of lions."

At night the watchmen of the city say, "Beauty shall rise with the dawn from the east."

And at noontide the toilers and the wayfarers say, "We have seen her leaning over the earth from the windows of the sunset."

In winter say the snow-bound, "She shall come with the spring leaping upon the hills."

And in the summer heat the reapers say, "We have seen her dancing with the autumn leaves, and we saw a drift of snow in her hair."

All these things have you said of beauty, Yet in truth you spoke not of her but of needs unsatisfied, And beauty is not a need but an ecstasy. It is not a mouth thirsting nor an empty hand stretched forth, But rather a heart enflamed and a soul enchanted.

It is not the image you would see nor the song you would hear, But rather an image you see though you close your eyes and a song you hear though you shut your ears. It is not the sap within the furrowed bark, nor a wing attached to a claw, But rather a garden for ever in bloom and a flock of angels for ever in flight.

People of Orphalese, beauty is life when life unveils her holy face.
But you are life and you are the veil.
Beauty is eternity gazing at itself in a mirror.
But you are eternity and you are the mirror.

Most Beautiful Heart

2009-11-01T06:20:00.010+07:00

One day a young man was standing in the middle of the town proclaiming that he had the most beautiful heart in the whole valley.

A large crowd gathered and they all admired his heart for it was perfect. There was not a mark or a flaw in it. Yes, they all agreed it truly was the most beautiful heart they had ever seen. The young man was very proud and boasted more loudly about his beautiful heart.

Suddenly, an old man appeared at the front of the crowd and said, "Why your heart is not nearly as beautiful as mine." The crowd and the young man looked at the old man's heart. It was beating strongly, but full of scars, it had places where pieces had been removed and other pieces put in, but they didn't fit quite right and there were several jagged edges. In fact, in some places there were deep gouges where whole pieces missing.

The people stared. How can he say his heart is more beautiful?? they thought. The young man looked at the old man's heart and saw its state and laughed. "You must be joking," he said. "Compare your heart with mine, mine is perfect and yours is a mess of scars and tears." "Yes," said the old man, "Yours is perfect looking but I would never trade with you. You see, every scar represents a person to whom I have given my love - I tear out a piece of my heart and give it to them, and often they give me a piece of their heart which fits into the empty place in my heart, but because the pieces aren't exact, I have some rough edges, which I cherish, because they remind me of the love we shared. Sometimes I have given pieces of my heart away, and the other person hasn't returned a piece of his heart to me. These are the empty gouges - giving love is taking a chance. Although these gouges are painful, they stay open, reminding me of the love I have for these people too, and I hope someday they may return and fill the space I have waiting. So now do you see what true beauty is?" Did you protect it so well that it is perfect without scars? Have you touched someone’s life today? Sometimes it hurts but that is when life counts!

The young man stood silently with tears running down his cheeks. He walked up to the old man, reached into his perfect young and beautiful heart, and ripped a piece out. He offered it to the old man with trembling hands. The old man took his offering, placed it in his heart and then took a piece from his old scarred heart and placed it in the wound in the young man's heart. It fit, but not perfectly, as there were some jagged edges.

The young man looked at his heart, not perfect anymore but more beautiful than ever, since love from the old man's heart flowed into his.They embraced and walked away side by side.

My Alter-Ego

2009-10-25T14:57:00.006+07:00

The Outside Contractor

"You have a solid, competent personality that may seem aloof and even arrogant, but you are typically highly skilled in any field that interests you. You are confident in your skills and knowledge, self-assured, and imaginative; your exceptional problem-solving skills make you an ideal architect, auto mechanic, and tool of the evil empire. While it requires the driving will to conquer of an Evil Overlord to imagine the Death Star and the evil genius of a Mad Scientist to invent its devastating weapons systems, your skill and technical prowess as an Outside Contractor is what makes the whole thing work.

You see life as a problem to be solved. For that reason, you are the person a company brings in from the outside to streamline production processes and identify redundant assets for termination. Your combination of analytical problem-solving skills and complete and utter disregard for the morality or consequences of your actions also make you ideal for the job of hatchet man, CIA operative, and help-desk operator."

(Taken from a Facebook Quiz application)

Superwoman

2009-10-25T10:23:00.024+07:00

This is one of the greatest song ever. It inspires people to keep on pursuing dreams. No matter how hard it is, no matter how tough it is, no matter how far it is, as long as we have faith in our self, we can still shine and rise. We’ll stand for the dreams.

Because yes we are all The Superwomen

Superwoman

Superwoman – Alicia Keys Music Code

Everywhere I'm turning
Nothing seems complete
I stand up and I'm searching
For the better part of me
I hang my head from sorrow
state of humanity
I wear it on my shoulders
Gotta find the strength in me

Cause I am a Superwoman
Yes I am
Yes she is
Even when I'm a mess
I still put on a vest
With an S on my chest
Oh yes
I'm a Superwoman

For all the mothers fighting
For better days to come
And all my women, all my women sitting here trying
To come home before the sun
And all my sisters
Coming together
Say yes I will
Yes I can

Cause I am a Superwoman
Yes I am
Yes she is
Even when I'm a mess
I still put on a vest
With an S on my chest
Oh yes
I'm a Superwoman

When I'm breaking down
And I can't be found
And I start to get weak
Cause no one knows
Me underneath these clothes
But I can fly
We can fly, Oh

Cause I am a Superwoman
Yes I am
Yes she is
Even when I'm a mess
I still put on a vest
With an S on my chest
Oh yes
I'm a Superwoman

And also there are some voices from Superwomen all over the world :

" A superwoman; is a woman who exceeds all expectations that life has yet to offer, she defies all odds. She has taught, or is teaching her children the value your life, others lives, hard work, love and humility. I am a strong and brave woman because of my mother. Thank you mom, thank you for being my hero. To my mother Maria 11/28/48-02/10/01 "

" I'm a superwoman because even though my mom got schizophrenic when I was 5, becoming my worst fear, I still love her. I'm a superwoman because even though she's moved to her hometown and I haven't been seeing her since that day, five years ago, I feel she's closest to me. I'm a superwoman because in spite of all this things, even when I cry I'm still able to find a good reason to smile for..."

"I think I am a superwoman because: When I was small my parents divorced not having unoff mony to pay the rent my father and I lived in the streets. we would beg for money and food. My father always encourged me to learn new things, my second grade teacher would always put on R&B and gosspil and i would always fall in love with the music. Then my aunt said she would support us and now i'm still going for college even though times are rough, I had also ended and overcome a abusive relationship."

"I am a superwoman because I have over came rape and melastation. I graduated high school top 10 % of my class even though I am total deaf in my left ear. I have taken college classes and gotten married, i am currently a student pursuing my dream while juggling work, studing, cooking cleaning, bills, friends, worship and life"

"I am a woman of many talents and blessings. I am a writer, poet, veteran, black belt, barber, daughter, teacher, friend, soon to be author, and a student at a major university. Two months ago I underwent an emergency surgery on my abdomen after internal bleeding and almost died. 3 weeks later I came back and won 3 trophies in karate, and 3 weeks after that I got my black belt. I am grateful for every single day that I get to live. To me being a superwoman is never giving up on the life that God has given "

"husband joined the AF. I then ended up in the hospital and bout died of ARDS and pneumonia while i was 5 months pregnant. Me and the baby survived and are goin strong, now im an AF wife that holds down the home while he's deployed every 6 months, and he's goin to afghanistan next, I am a superwoman"

"I am a 30 years old mother of 3, I was told by more than one teacher in my life I would NEVER amount to anything! I was in special education. I am now trainning with world record holder Jim Dreyer to be the first WOMAN to swim across Lake Michigan, a 50 mile non stop swim that will last around 41 hours. I am also trying to inspire woman to keep dreaming, all of us CAN live our dreams NO MATTER what! NEVER ever stop believing, dreams do come true!"

"Thanks Alicia for summing up the meaning of a "SUPERWOMAN" . This is one of other songs that came to me when I graduated from college this May and I felt very proud because despite the odds (divorce, financial challenges, single mother, etc) I still manage with prayer and strength from GOD and the belief in myself I beat them all. I cried when I rehearsed the lyrics because I know what it means to sacrifice and not only did I but my daughter did as well so KUDOS to her. Thanks once again ALICIA"

"i think all girls are superwomen because everyone hasn't had a perfect life, but we overcome problems, and we are strong people.... no matter where we come from, what we look like or anything else....we are all superwomen!!"

PS:
"Just believe in yourself that you're a Superwoman, outside and within :) "

Bad Hamster, I hate you

2009-10-20T22:12:00.005+07:00

20th October 2009

i saw a very terrible view.
seeing a hamster died, yes it was terrible
but seeing a hamster ate another hamster dead body is very terrible! it was creepy
i never expect to see this tragedy from a cutie hamster. Imagine, a hamster!

this afternoon i went to hypermart to buy some supplies and food. after purchasing the whole needs, i remembered that i want to see hamsters at the corner of the market. before, i already saw cutie hamsters in a glimpse. So, then i decideD to see it again. but! unfortunately i saw an unexpected thing! a hamster ate another hamster! you know what, it wasn't a funny thing like "jeruk makan jeruk". it was horrible!! i just cant believe a cute creature like that would do that.. and i was very shocked and i hold my will to buy hamster...

It is you, L

2009-10-20T18:56:00.005+07:00

Sitting and lying here beneath the dim light
doing nothing but concealing the mellow truth
just realized that the tied thoughts buried within this empty head

trying to be more focus
can't refuse to remember the facts that i cannot neglect
facts that i just realized in this short time

and you know what,
you're so good with your little-cutie-but dirty jokes
you're so good with your affection and care
you're the one that make me smile
you're the one that make me laugh
out loud

so damn happy with ordinary life i have
a second with you is roller coaster riding
lively and full of excitement

nothing to deny
and i am admitting the truth
that i permit myself to love you, L

L is Love and Initial

Diam

2009-10-15T19:04:00.001+07:00

Perkenalkan teman baru saya yang mengagumkan, Diam

Diam adalah seni keanggunan 
Diam adalah permata kehidupan
Diam adalah sahabat pendewasaan
Diam adalah sahabat dalam perenungan
Diam adalah mata air pemikiran brilian
Diam adalah ibu dari kebijakan dan keagungan

Diam adalah sebuah sistem emosi yang dapat membawa hatimu dalam ketenangan dan kedamaian. Percayalah dan buktikanlah sendiri. Cobalah Berikan waktumu sejenak untuknya. Dan biarkan keajaiban dari membawamu. Siapa tahu Diam pun dapat menjadi teman barumu. Teruslah mencoba sehingga pada akhirnya Kau sadar bahwa Diam adalah berlian tidak ternilai

hahaha

2009-08-02T14:05:00.003+07:00

my life pen is full ink
and would never stop stalking my story
he knows everything
about me and fates

he is a friend of mind that make stories of mine
he knows everything
and also know that..

after all the story im in
after all the pain i get
after all the tears i hide
i found my another light
a bit dangerous
but too tempting to refuse

i just can't deny..

benarkah?

2009-07-04T22:24:00.005+07:00

orang-orang gemar mengajukan pertanyaan retoris
pertanyaan yang sepertinya tidak memerlukan jawaban
mungkin lebih tepatnya pertanyaan yang tidak perlu dijawab
karena sebenarnya memiliki jawaban, tetapi cukup hanya disimpan

tetapi ternyata memang benar
terkadang jawaban dari pertanyaan retoris itu menohok
sedikit menyinggung, banyak menyindir
terlalu menyikut dan menyakitkan

meskipun demikian bukankah memang begitu kegunaannya
agar orang-orang terbangun dari kebohongan
dan bercermin sampai tersadar

bertanya-tanya

2009-07-04T22:08:00.002+07:00

ada saat dimana orang orang bersikap seolah tidak tahu apa apa dan berpura-pura bodoh. adapula saat dimana orang bersikap sok tahu ketika ia tidak tahu apa-apa. kemudian adapula saat dimana orang-orang menyembunyikan kebenaran, kebenaran mengenai fakta dan dirinya. orang-orang seperti itu memang pandai menyembunyikan isi hatinya, mereka memiliki topeng yang dapat dengan mudah mereka kenakan dengan lihai, sesuai kebutuhan. inilah salah satu hal yang saya bingungkan, saya masih tidak mengerti esensi dari keberpura-puraan ini. saya merasa hal ini merupakan salah satu upaya memalsukan diri, buat apa hidup dalam kebohongan? tapi meskipun berapapun besar rasa bertanya-tanya saya, tetap saja dunia akan bergulir seperti ini... mm apakah memang seharusnya seperti ini? atau apakah hanya saya yang sedikit idealis?

today's thought

2009-06-27T12:23:00.001+07:00

1st
Happy family timee!
2nd
I am so happy and so grateful!

Cheers :))

rebellious child's voice

2009-06-26T12:02:00.008+07:00

apakah saya bersalah karena tidak dewasa?
apakah saya bersalah karena berbeda dengan Anda?
apakah saya bersalah karena sedang berada di fase yang berbeda?

kalau begitu apa yang harus saya lakukan?
apakah saya harus berubah menjadi sosok dewasa?
baiklah, jika demikian berilah saya contoh seorang sosok dewasa
siapakah dia? Anda?
baiklah jika Anda berkata demikian
tapi kalau memang demikian maka saya akan berpikir ulang
otak saya kembali berputar mempertimbangkan

apakah saya harus menjadi Anda yang Anda sebut dewasa?
karena sejujurnya saya kurang percaya dengan Anda

karena jika saya berubah..
haruskah saya menjadi pandai berbohong?
haruskah saya menjadi pandai memanipulasi?
haruskah saya menjadi pandai menyembunyikan?
haruskah saya menjadi pandai memutarbalikkan fakta?

seperti Anda?

haruskah?

maaf, hati nurani seorang bocah pun menolak
jika dituntut menjadi sosok dewasa yang seperti Anda

2009-06-21T09:39:00.001+07:00

this is how life could be

just another thought

2009-06-08T19:11:00.004+07:00

ada suatu titik dimana.. kita sadar bahwa ga selamanya kejujuran dan ketulusan hati itu bukan lagi menjadi sebuah cara untuk mendapatkan atau mempertahankan sesuatu. ada sesuatu, entah apa itu, yang gue yakin pasti ada sesuatu diluar kedua hal itu yang berperan dibalik semua ini. sempat terpikir olehku mengenai God's plan, mungkin itulah yang membuat dunia ini bekerja, berputar dan hidup dengan cara yang ga terduga, mengejutkan atau bahkan mengagumkan. siapa yang tau kehidupan seseorang bisa berubah 180 derajat dan begitu pula di keesokan harinya. well maybe that's why life called as mystery, we will never know what would happen next.

like i said before, life is a mystery. dan jujur gue sempet ngerasainnya jg, krn dulu gue g pernah memperkirakan atau bahkan mungkin berpikir aja ga sempet tentang posisi gue dsaat ini. dimulai dengan gue sadar tentang sesuatu yang seharusnya g mengejutkan, ternyata memang benar, dunia itu ga naif, gaperlu memaksakan diri sepenuhnya menjadi "good person", karena belum tentu itulah dunia yang dihadapi. kadang-kadang dengan keluar dari jalur yang biasanya, dengan melihat yang sisi dunia yang lain kita jadi bisa menemukan dan bertemu dengan sesuatu yang lebih berharga :)

ternyata kehidupan manusia itu g sesimple kehidupan makhluk yang lain yang cuma sekedar lahir-hidup-mati. manusia dikelilingi rasa dan pikiran yang membuat hidup lebih rumit, meskipun terkadang membingungkan tapi hal itulah yang membuat hidup manusia lebih berarti. pikiran yang memacu untuk berkembang, hati dan rasa yang mengundang air mata, senyum ataupun tawa, semuanya terekam dalam memori dan bahkan ternyata memori itu sendiri pun bisa membuat sensasi tersendiri. luarbiasa ya? hahaha. tapi memang ternyata semua itu yaa yang membuat manusia hidup sebagai... manusia..

hmmm..

2009-06-07T11:06:00.007+07:00

hmmm... actually i dont really know what i am going to tell. i have nothing in my mind.

anywayy belakangan ini gue suka buka looklet.com trus yaa buat sekalian nambah-nambahin post di blog gue yg terbengkalai ini mungkin gue share aja beberapa "look" gue di looklet

well you are pleased to have a visit at
http://looklet.com/user/22933

cheers :)

Ting!

2009-05-30T15:36:00.004+07:00

hmmm... baru-baru ini gue menaruh interest sama anak kecil. yaaa bukan berarti gue orang yang suka nyubit-nyubit sampe merah gitu yaa, tp gue br aja menyadari kl ternyata gue suka ngeliat anak kecil yang lagi berkeliaran, lari-lari, lompat-lompat sambil ketawa-ketawi, dan anehnya ini bisa bikin gue senyum2 sendiri, atauu ternyata malah bisa buat gue ketawa juga kl ngeliat yang abis dibilangin ibunya "jangan lari disitu nak, ntar jatoh" tp dengan sok taunya si anak kecil tetap berlari dan berlari sampaaai... braaaakk... sampaai jatoh beneran trus eh abis itu nangis. hahaha jahat ya? tp abis ketawa gue manaruh rasa kasihan kok sm si anak. awal niatnya sih mau nyamperin tp tiba2 serem liat emaknya.

lalu2 alhasil interest gue yang satu ini membuat gue berimajinasi... hmmmm apakah ituuu? yaaak tiba2 aja gue berpikir untuk membuat... (jengjengjeeeng) sebuaaaah .....TK!!! (yeeeayy plok plok). hahahhaa. trus barusan td gue bikin set baru d polyvore. awalnya dimulai dengan gue nemu tunic warna-warni. trus dilannjutin dikit demi sedikit, trus ko lama2 makin kaya anak kecil yaa? ga cocok bgt deh kalo dpake orang seumuran gue hahaha. truss tiba2 gue mikir.. hmmm kl misalnya ada TK yang seragamnya gini lucu juga yaaa, trus tasnya, lunchboxnya, sepatunyaaa. hahahha lucu bgt deh pasti.. yakanyakan? setuju gak? hahaha. mmm maksudnya kaya di bawah ini..

PLAYGROUND!! by tamiyuwono featuring Converse shoes

hahaha well that's all, what do you think?

polyvore newbie

2009-03-17T08:34:00.002+07:00

mm maybe it's so last year about playing on polyvore. but recently i just start playin it. haha it's fun enough. and below are my sets. quite trashy but it still okay, i think. :)

Meet my sets at polyvore!

2009-03-16T21:49:00.008+07:00

black and red - by tamiyuwono on Polyvore.com

l>
simple and chic - by tamiyuwono on Polyvore.com

belenggu dan cinta

2009-03-16T19:57:00.008+07:00

sedetik berjalan, ku bertemu cinta. sedetik berlari, ku bertemu belenggu. tampak asing, aku bertanya. seperti apa mereka? tampak rapuh terdampar di teluk pantai drama.

sekilas, mereka hanya dua makhluk kontradiktif tak berteman. yang bila berfusi melahirkan belenggu cinta. ha? belenggu cinta, apakah itu ? ada yang tahu? Ada yang tahu tentang mereka? seseorang menjawab. terbilang dari kamus dendam, mereka tak berteman selayaknya api yang memusuhi air dan seperti bulan yang bersembunyi dari matahari

hahaha

belenggu cinta, siapa yang menciptakan mereka? siapa yang mau mengakui fakta dirinya sebagai pencipta belenggu dan pencipta cinta? ketika atas nama manusia lepas tangan dan ketika keberadaannya diacuhkan dan dibiarkan menjadi. ataukah mungkin mereka tidak mau mempertanggungjawabkan atas cinta yang tertunda?

hahaha

terus dan terus tertawa karena jawaban tidak kunjung datang. apakah kamu juga takut akan belenggu cinta? jawaban tanyaku, keluarlah!

hahahha
tertawa terus menerus,
sampai
mati

Nimrodel by J. R. R. Tolkien

2009-03-15T20:39:00.005+07:00

An Elven-maid there was of old,
A shining star by day.
Her mantle white was hemmed with gold,
Her shoes of silver-grey.

A star was bound upon her brows,
A light was on her hair
As sun upon the golden boughs
In Lorien the fair.

Her hair was long, her limbs were white,
And fair she was and free;
And in the wind she went as light
As leaf of linden-tree.

Beside the falls of Nimrodel,
By water clear and cool,
Her voice as falling silver fell
Into the shining pool.

Where now she wanders none can tell,
In sunlight or in shade;
For lost of yore was Nimrodel
And in the mountains strayed.

The elven-ships in haven grey
Beneath the mountain-lee
Awaited her for many a day
Beside the roaring sea.

A wind by night in Northern lands
Arose, and loud it cried,
And drove the ship from elven-strands
Across the steaming tide.

When dawn came dim the land was lost,
The mountains sinking grey
Beyond the heaving waves that tossed
Their plumes of blinding spray.

Amroth beheld the fading shore
Now low beyond the swell,
And cursed the faithless ship that bore
Him far from Nimrodel.

Of old he was an Elven-king,
A lord of tree and glen,
When golden were the boughs in spring
In fair Lothlorien.

From helm to sea they saw him leap,
As arrow from the string,
And dive into the water deep,
As mew upon the wing.

The wind was in his flowing hair,
The foam about him shone;
Afar they saw him strong and fair
Go riding like a swan.

But from the West has come no word,
And on the Hither Shore
No tidings Elven-folk have heard
Of Amroth evermore

little short conversation

2009-03-15T18:15:00.003+07:00

yesterday, i had a little short conversation with my dad. mmm not that short actually, my dad gave me looooooong details of things that he talked about. well, it started when i came to him telling my recent experience with one of my neighbour.well who is he? he is a doctor in my neighborhood. haha! i know it's quite weird having problem with doctor.

then the story is, at that time i met that person in his clinic. my reason to come and see him was in purpose of getting medical certificate. cause i need it to get my task submitted in a subject. err i knew it's quite weird. haha firstly we just had a simple, cliche neighboury conversation. about my school and his work as doctor. but then it continued to the unnecessary and agitating conversation. he showed off things that he had, even i didn't ask anything about it. furthermore he compared me with one of his relative that also in a same faculty and institute as i am ( years ago). he said that his relative didn't make it in work environment even actually he also continued his study in US. and blahblahblahhhhhhh more and more about negative thoughts. eeewwh, why i have such an impish neighbor like this?

when i came to my dad, i just spit out the whoole thing. but he didnt seem get disturbed as i were. he just said " you gotta need to be the subject, not the object. dont let the other examines you then you act like everything is not in your hand. obviously you really need to control the situation, and never ever let the situation control you" in this case why i felt weak, why didn't i do the same thing to him? mm i think later i'll do it back at him.. haha

*another unimportant post of unimportant story

karat dalam otak

2009-03-06T21:22:00.003+07:00

curhat nih ceritanyaa haha

belakangan ini gue merasa aneh. aneh banget. beda dari biasanya. sebetulnya gue tau sih kenapa. cuman yaa gue ga menyangka efeknya akan berkelanjutan dalam jangka waktu yang ga bisa gue prediksiin smp kapan.aneh ya.

oh ya dan gue menyebutnya karat dalam otak.

beberapa hal yang terdeteksi aneh di pikiran gue ini adalah bagian operation dr tubuh gue. mm gini, gue punya sebuah analogi asal2an yang penuh kesoktauan tingkat tinggi. jadi gini, sederhananya kl perusahaan kan basicnya ada divisi marketing, finance sm operation. nah otak sm hati kita tuh kaya marketing sm financenya tubuh kita. dimana berfungsi sebagai planner sm pengukur achievement kt udah smp mana. trus mngkin kl operation tuh kaya sistem saraf yang menguhubungkan otak sm organ2 tubuh kita.

naaaaaah teruuuusss,,,
udah banyaaaaaaaaaaakkk bgt hal2 yang gue rencanakan untuk gue lakukan tapi yaa kenapa operation system gue ga jalan. knapa oh knapa. mungkin memang beneran ada karat dlm otak gue yah.. mungkin ga sih? hahhaa

Wanita

2009-03-06T17:53:00.002+07:00

Mengenai satu hal
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Tidak perlu
Untuk apa?

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Wanita tidak menghujat
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Karena wanita terlalu berharga untuk ternodai oleh kerendahan semacam itu

Wanita hanya perlu menunggu
Terjemput oleh takdir

matahari

2009-03-05T17:39:00.002+07:00

terasa gelap
terasa suram
terasa sunyi

Matahari sedang meredup..

ahh..

Matahari, ayolah bersinarlah lagi!

ketidakskutan pada skut yang tidak skut

2009-03-03T22:11:00.004+07:00

hahaha sebetulnya gue biasa aja sm ucapan kata 'skut'. tapiiii yaaaa kalo ada orang yang ngomong gituuu teruus smp kesannya sok asik gt rasanya sedikit mengganggu g si? hahaha. apa guenya yg lg sensi ya? pms mgkin.. hahaha

*postingan g penting (lagi)

hidup adalah memilih

2009-02-28T16:59:00.012+07:00

Dimulai oleh sebuah monolog yang bergetar
'' mengapa kita ada disini?''

Sebuah kalimat yang mengawali pikiran untuk terbuka melihat dimana posisi seseorang. posisi seseorang berasal dari pilihan orang itu sendiri, bukan orang lain. karena hidup itu berada di tangan masing-masing orang, dan akan berkembang sesuai pemiliknya.

Hidup itu tentang memilih
dimana seseorang harus memilih mana jalan yang akan ditempuh. Yang namun sayangnya tidak jarang pilihan tidak terlihat mudah, tidak terlihat hitam putih ataupun tidak terlihat benar dan salah. karena setiap pilihan memiliki sisi positif dan negatifnya masing-masing yang pada nyatanya memang berpotensi untuk membuat seseorang menjadi terkecoh. ya begitulah, itulah sebabnya mengapa seorang manager suatu perusahaan dibayar sekian puluh juta untuk memilih, untuk memutuskan mana jalan yang hrus dipilih. karena memilih itu tidak selalu menjadi hal yang mudah. Selain itu memilih juga bukan hal yang sembarangan dilakukan. Karena sebelum memilih seseorang harus melihat segala kondisi, segala situasi yang terkait dari berbagai perspektif yang kemudian harus ditarik benang merahnya, pilihan terbaik.

dan terkadang juga,
dengan memilih sesuatu kita harus kehilangan sesuatu, but that's life. life is about choosing. entah salah ataupun benar pilihan kita, kita memang dituntut untuk memilih, entah apapun yang terjadi.

Bagaimanapun juga entah sebagaimana tingkat kesalahan dari pilihan kita, kita masih tetap hidup ko, langit masih biru, dan dunia masih berputar. yakan? oleh karena itu tak perlu risau untuk takut salah memilih. karena percayalah bahwa memilih pilihan yang benar berawal dari memilih pilihan yang salah

dont get afraid to choose !
=D

color and personality

2009-02-27T17:51:00.005+07:00

well which one are you?

Green

Personality: A preference for green shows that a person is a terrific listener who’s never too busy to help a friend in need. But your ability to put yourself in other people’s shoes is your true gift. And although you appear innocent at times, your natural curiosity and your understanding of what makes people tick makes you more streetwise than you seem.

Celebs who love the color: Julia Roberts, Courteney Cox Arquette

Black
Personality: An affinity for black indicates that you’re fiercely loyal, committed to all of your relationships and extremely disciplined about achieving goals. Lovers of black tend to be emotional people and often make decisions based on feelings rather than logic.

Celebs who love the color: Angelina Jolie, Gail O’Grady, Jennifer Aniston

White or Cream
Personality: Those who favor white are willing to experience lots of new things and seek out the unexplored. You attract many different types of people and adventures, but all this action can get you into a few tight spots. The best strategy: Control your expectations by limiting yourself to desires and goals you are sure you can achieve.

Celebs who love the color: Kristin Davis, Jessica Biel, Pamela Anderson

Red
Personality: A passion for red announces loud and clear that a woman is a mover and shaker who does nothing halfway. Direct and practical with a clear idea of what you want, you let others know exactly where they stand and you establish firm boundaries. Saying “no” is not a problem for you. As a result, people respect you and listen when you talk. You can, however, become impatient with others’ inefficiencies.

Celebs who love the color: Cindy Crawford, Meg Ryan

Yellow
Personality: A fondness for yellow suggests you’re an optimist who accepts people for who they are and you like to make everyone feel good. Like other people who love yellow, you tend to extend yourself without expecting anything in return, but you don’t accept kindness easily so it’s hard for others to do nice things for you.

Pink
Personality: A preference for pink comes with a genuine concern for others. It makes a you appear angelic – that’s your great strength. But you need appreciation for your deeds in order to move forward in life.

Celebs who love the color: Nicole Kidman, Jennifer Garner

Gold and Bronze
Personality: Women drawn to gold are not the type to sit back and let the world pass them by. You have high hopes, dreams and ambitions, and you enjoy life to the fullest. But your passion can also be your downfall, as it causes you to over-schedule and, as a result, feel stressed and overwhelmed at times.

Celebs who love the color: Fergie, Allison Janney, Kate Walsh

Silver
Personality: Silver as a favorite color indicates a woman is searching to better understand her deepest feelings. You long to be immersed in your own thoughts, away from the busy world. Introspective by nature, you ask yourself such weighty questions as “What’s my emotional fulfillment from this action?” and “Will going down this road be a passionate journey?”

Celebs who love the color: Paris Hilton, Kelly Ripa

Blue

Personality: Optimistic and dreamy, blue buffs overlook little slights and stumbling blocks, give others the benefit of the doubt, and see the sunny side of life. You create a positive, upbeat presence that keeps those around you moving forward. In love, your focus on the positive can make you naive. It can take you a long time – perhaps too long – to see the shortcomings of your beloved.

Celebs who love the color: Dayna Devon and Hilary Swank

Your Primary Pick
According to Sadka, primary colors – yellow, blue and red – provide us with energy. Your favorite primary color reveals a lot about your approach to life, while your least favorite indicates the issues you try to avoid. Here’s a look at what your preferences – in various color combinations – show about you:

Your favorite: Yellow
Your least favorite: Red
What this says about you: You’ve got a knack for seeing other people’s point of views. But this empathy can be an obstacle when you let others’ needs prevent you from making the best decisions for yourself.

Your favorite: Yellow

Your least favorite: Blue

What this says about you: Your ability to see the big picture lets you pinpoint what’s missing, helping you transform failure into success. But forgetting details is your biggest roadblock.

Your favorite: Blue

Your least favorite: Yellow

What this says about you: You’re a great strategist who can plan imaginatively. The problem? What you think you need often differs from what you really need. The key to your success is being more practical in the planning phase

Your favorite: Blue

Your least favorite: Red

What this says about you: You have a rare ability to see the possibilities of your goals, as well as the limitations. But difficulty expressing yourself may keep you from garnering the support you need to achieve your dreams.

Your favorite: Red

Your least favorite: Yellow

What this says about you: You’re a perfectionist with an eye for seeing what isn’t working. But when you feel overwhelmed, you see your way as the only way. Remember to hear others out, and you’ll find your answers.

Your favorite: Red

Your least favorite: Blue

What this says about you: Your talent for appraising situations can get lost in the specifics of a task. Staying focused on your overall goal – rather than on the technicalities – will keep you on course.

They say life is..

2009-02-22T11:51:00.003+07:00

they say
life is a book
life is chapters
what you've been right now is not the final, why worry?

they say
life is a drama
life is scenarios
just play the role then everything will be just fine, why worry?

they say
life is an art
an art of writing without eraser
if we have a brain, a mistake won't take us down, right? why worry?

And
if life has already written by God,
why worry?

we do the best, then God will do the rest

iseng.. haha

2009-02-22T11:38:00.004+07:00

aku hanya melirik
sekejap
aku hanya melirik
sekilas
aku hanya mendelik
sebentar

hanya saja lho!
tak perlu takut
tak perlu panik
tak perlu menghindar

tak perlu!
jika ya kutertawa
lagi dan lagi
hahaha

sudahi saja usahamu
sudahi mengundang dengusan orang

jika tidak
ku kan tertawa
lagi dan lagi!
hahaha

to a friend of mine :)

2009-02-22T09:48:00.003+07:00

i miss you, K

so..

2009-02-21T15:19:00.001+07:00

jadi..
buat gue saat ini
memang ada hal yang harus diubah
tp ada juga hal yang akan terus gue pertahanin

Hello again!

2009-02-21T14:25:00.006+07:00

setelah amat sangat lama ga berinteraksi dengan dunia blog dengan cara yang intensif (maksudnya gue kl ngepost kan seiprit-iprit gitu) haha akhirnya gue berhasrat juga untuk menulis lagi, yaa nulis sesuatu yang kali ini panjangan dikit (tp ternyata pas gue ud selese nulis ternyata ga panjang2 amat jdnya hahaha). hmmm kali ini gue sedang memikirkan dan merenungkan sesuatu. tentang mengapa seseorang harus berubah. kalau dilihat sekilas, berubah adalah sebuah fase yang dapat membawa seseorang menuju yang lebih baik. kalau kita tambah begini, tambah baik. kalau tambah begitu, tambah bagus. yakan yakan? hmm tapi.. bukannya gue sepenuhnya ga setuju sama yang namanya perubahan tp gue akan ga setuju kalau perubahan tidak lg menjadi hal yang membawa kebaikan. terkadang dengan berubah, kita ga bisa menjadi diri kita sendiri. sering denger ga sihh kata-kata cheesy jaman dulu yang 'be yourself'? 2 kata yang dulu gue pikir apaaa banget deh hahaha. tp lama2 gue ngerasa itu bener banget lhoo. dengan menjadi diri kita sendiri kita bisa menikmati dengan cara kita sendiri. dan menikmati hidup itu memang harus dengan cara kita sendiri lho. kalo kita ikut2 orang begini atau begitu karna menurut mereka hal itu oke, hal itu nice, tp kalau menurut kita sendiri kita ngga gimana? akan ikut senangkah kita? ataukah kita hanya ingin hidup dalam sebuah kepalsuan? bersikap sebagai seorang poser? kalo kt mau ngeliat sekeliling kita, ada lho beberapa orang yang seperti itu, yang gue dalem hati bilang 'apa yaa rasanyaa, apa mereka bner2 bisa menikmati hidup yang seperti itu?'

kalo menurut lo gimana?

huahmm

2009-02-18T22:00:00.000+07:00

males gilaaa besok kuliah jam 7. bangun ga yaa? haha

uulala!

2009-02-09T22:49:00.000+07:00

too happy to tell ;p

~

2009-02-08T23:41:00.001+07:00

omong kosong dengan waktu

waktu

2009-02-06T16:46:00.003+07:00

WAKTU bisa diartikan bermacam-macam. ada yang mengasosiasikan waktu dengan kebosanan, dimana ia tak mau terus menerus menghabiskan waktunya lebih lama lagi untuk sesuatu yang tidak disukai, misalnya seperti sesuatu yang monoton ataupun sesuatu yang tidak perlu dicantumkan di to-do list seseorang. anggep aja waktu kita lagi dapet kuliah yang ngeboseniiiin, pgn cabut aja bawaannya, atau buat beberapa orang main ebuddy sm buka fb bisa jadi pengalih

trusss ada jugaa yang mengartikan waktu sebagai jet coaster, dimana orang terkadang akan berteriak di beberapa lekukan rel yang membawa hidupmu terasa melonjak tinggi ataupun jatuh terpuruk, naik dan turun. adrenalin berpacu dan ketegangan merasuki diri. bisa saja adrenalin oleh kegegapgempitaan ataupun kepanikan yang emg asli panik. well that's why somebody said that life is like jet coaster. kita ga tahu kita akan dibawa kmana oleh hidup, dan memang benar kl hidup itu penuh dengan kejutan..

dan kali ini aku menyatakan waktu sebagai partner penyembuh luka, partner pembimbingku untuk tumbuh dan sekaligus menjadi jam penghitung pemacu untuk mengejar target2 hidupku. waktu itu sendiri adalah bom waktu, yang jika tidak dijinakkan akan menghancurkan diri. sebuah arti lain dari dewa wisnu sang penghancur. (tsaaaah, hahaha)

bagi gue momen ini adalah kesempatan untuk saling mengheningkan diri, mencari tau masalahnya dan merenungkannya. well wish me luck ! =p

1

2009-02-03T19:36:00.002+07:00

sebagian tidak tahu
sebagian menduga
sebagian sok tahu

menerka tak beralur, mencetak salah nilai, menggores luka, merepis darah
lebih baik mereka tak peduli

:)

2009-01-30T17:15:00.001+07:00

im sure i can do it.. ;p

nyammnyamm

2009-01-26T19:46:00.006+07:00

Heyyyy!!

gue baru aja belanjaaa, td gue bli banyak coklat2 sm permen2 gt and seems i dont care if get fat.. hahaha

*penting banget deehhh

a new quote from someone :)

2009-01-26T19:40:00.006+07:00

'' Semakin cepat kamu menerima dunia,
semakin cepat kamu dewasa''

Nobody's perfect

2009-01-23T21:14:00.004+07:00

'' ga ada orang yang sempurna di dunia ini''
hmm, pada awalnya jujur sih kata2 itu terdengar seperti rangkaian kata yang klise yang biasa terlintas di buku2, novel2, film2, atau apapunlah. aku menganggap itu sebagai sesuatu yang berarti sepele di mataku, sesuatu yang tidak penting untuk diulas, sesuatu yang kecil. haha. hmm tp setelah dipikir2 mungkin itu saat2 dimana gue blm sadar pentingnya memandang dunia hal lebih luas lg,dengan perspektif yang berbeda. kata2 yang barusan kukira hanya sekedar ucapan orang2 sok bijak yang ingin terdengar dramatis, puitis atau dewasa sekarang terdengar betul2 benar dan tidak dapat diganggu gugat kebenarannya. hahaha tentu saja setelah gue betul2 memahami maksudnya, yang entah mengapa dapat ditafsirkan lebih dari satu kalimat.

tanpa disangka2 di dunia ini kita bertemu dengan berbagai macam orang, yang tentunya berbeda-beda. dengan karakternya masing-masing, manusia2 ini saling berinteraksi dengan berkomunikasi yang menghasilkan buah2 berbeda, yang hasilnya tergantung dari karakteristik individu2 tsb.

beberapa saat terakhir ini gue bertemu seseorang, seseorang yang sebetulnya sangat jauh berbeda denganku, seseorang yang kukira tidak akan cocok denganku, seseorang yang sangat berbeda. g begitu sih awalnya, awalnya kita spending time together meskipun hubungan kita sndiri g intense. trus setelah agak mengenal dia, rasa2 tidak cocok mulai keluar, ada sesuatu yang bertentangan ttg gue dan dia, sesuatu yang g bisa dipaksain, kadang2 gue merasa dia kurang disini atau mungkin dia yang berpikir gue kurang dimana. blablabal dan disinilah emotional moment berkelebatan haha. well itu kan sewaktu gue AGAK mengenal dia, lama kelamaan setelah gue sudah mengenal dia secara UTUH gue mulai mengerti dia, gue mulai memahami semua sikapnya slama ini k gue, beserta alesan2nya. nah dsaat inilah dia guilty feeling mulai muncul. trus selanjutnya dalam kondisi ini gue malah jd mnganggap kekurangan dia menjadi hal yang lucu, menggemaskan atau jd sesuatu yang dikangenin haha lucu yaa, tp bgitulah knyataannya. hihi

hmm dari situ gue br bener2 ngerti maksud "nobody's perfect'' karena untuk membuat hidup lebih indah itu bukanlah kesempurnaan, melainkan ketulusan masing-masing untuk saling memahami dan menerima apa adanya, dan di saat itulah kita akan tersenyum pd dunia

yang gue pelajarin disini ada baiknya untuk kita untuk tidak hanya sekedar AGAK mengenal seseorang melainkan kita harus mengenal seseorang itu dengan seUTUHnya. jangan tanggung2.bahkan bisa jadi lebih baik kita g ush kenal ajaa, drpd mmbuat prasangka2 buruk. hahaha. hmm tp betul g si? gtau dehh kynya postingan kl ini postingan yang plg ngaco deeh, byk bacot ajaa hahaaa

Perspektif Zoom Out

2009-01-09T17:19:00.005+07:00

Perspektif zoom out.

Ini adalah salah satu teori gue mengenai bagaimana baiknya memandang suatu masalah. sebuah teori yang baru2 saja terumuskan di dalam perjalanan pulang gue kerumah barusan. (anyway td gue abis dr GI sm sahabat seperjuangan gue, Kiko haha). Gue ga tau sih teori ini betul-betul 100% akurat atau gmn, tapi setelah gue mereview ulang ke belakang mengenai kejadian2 yang pernah gue alamin dalam kehidupan gue, teori ini ga pernah salah.

yea azik sok pinter gt y gue hahaha

perspektif zoom out adalah salah satu cara memandang suatu masalah melalui sudut pandang yang lebih jauh sehingga kita dapat melihat dunia dengan lebih luas. hal ini dapat kita analogikan bagai semut dan burung (sedikit kurang oke ya objeknya tp yaudalah haha). semut hanya dapat melihat dunia dengan sesuatu yang berada dalam area terdekatnya, area yang sempit. sementara burung dapat melihat segala sesuatunya dengan jelas dari udara kejauhan, yang tentunya mencakup area yang luas. dan tentu saja dalam hal ini menjadi 'burung' adalah pilihan tepat ketika menghadapi masalah.

jadii. . bagaimana ya penerapannyaa?? sangat simple dan sederhana. pandangan kita mengenai sesuatu harus memenuhi :

full version keterangan dari hal itu (sebaiknya mencakup pandangan dari smua pihak yang bersangkutan)
cari tahu sebab2 bagaimana itu bisa terjadi
apa saja dampak2nya dari hal itu
apa aja hal2 yang bisa saling berkaitan dalam hal itu
no suudzon! hehe
naah trus tinggal cari solusinya deeh, apa yang harus kita lakukan untuk menghadapinya dengan cara yang matang dan bijaksana

nah, dengan memandang masalah seperti ini kerap sekali kita akan menemukan toleransi untuk masalah yang kita temui sehingga kita dapat memberikan perngertian lebih yang memiliki alasan yang tepat dan logis

sebetulnya masih banyak sih yang mau gue omongin tapi udah keburu males dan laperr jadii yaudalah segini aja postnya hehe. bubye

i'm sorry Mom

2009-01-06T19:33:00.004+07:00

baru saja gue melakukan kesalahan sama nyokap gue dan gue jadi sangat2 menyesal

im sorry Mom

wanita

2009-01-05T18:50:00.002+07:00

wanita itu cantik
wanita itu berharga
wanita itu perhiasan
wanita itu harta dunia

wanita itu ibu
wanita itu ibu manusia
wanita itu ibu kaum adam
wanita itu ibu ayah manusia

wanita itu wanita

yeaaaayyyy

2009-01-05T18:26:00.004+07:00

about two weeks ago i came to kinokuniya PIM looking for a book. a book that almost made me crazy because i cant find it anywhere. 'Breaking Dawn' yes it is the book that im looking for. i've looked for it in many bookstores and i found none. so then i left a message to the kinokuniya's staff. i told them to make a call for me when the book's is available to buy again.

and finallyyy, i got a call two days ago! then today i come there to take and buy the book!!! oh gosshh im so happy, finally. hihi.

Cant wait to read it!!!!!!!

aku tahu dan tidak peduli

2009-01-05T15:33:00.004+07:00

aku tahu
aku melihat
aku mendengar

geraman pelan dari kejauhan
menanti bayangan kelabu
bayangan mimpi

angin malam menepis pipi
wajah rapuhku membeku
akan belaian angin

hatiku keras
namun kosong
terlalu banyak ruang
ruang hampa

kunang malam menari
menebar cahaya
menari suram
sembari mengejek

bukan masalah
karena aku akan terus berjalan
menembus cakrawala dimensi waktu

menengguk asa

2009-01-05T13:28:00.004+07:00

irama mengalun
langkah tergerak
lantas kumenari
dalam temaram bulan

kurangkai senyumku
kulepas tawaku
kurentangkan tanganku
aku siap!

kutahu
hujan badai akan berkunjung
bahkan petir telah menyapa!
kusambut mereka
aku siap!

hangat akan terusir
melodi akan lenyap
dan bulanpun akan pergi
meninggalkanku
sendiri

namun
dalam diriku
tak ada rasa getir
karena aku masih

menengguk asa

spring melody

2009-01-05T13:11:00.006+07:00

baby lord,

green of the leaves strode by
red as the rose joined
the song of the children
with yellow flowers in their palm

spring is here
shouting twinkle of the bells
streaks of lights beneath the trees
as the river streams goes by
people bloom in spring

New year celebration

2009-01-05T10:57:00.013+07:00

Hey there fellas!
its been 4 days since the new year celebration. my new year celebration is very fascinating and satisfying. i met my high school friends, which is my 2 year classmate (im in acceleration class believe it or not). i met them in Iftitah's house. actually she invited us to have a new year celebration party there with an outstanding theme: animal costume party hahaha. this is quite crazy but this is gonna be so fun and cool.

firstly i arrived there at about 9PM, and my friends are already there. there are Kiky, Iftitah, Inggit, Dea, Salman and Gilang. and some of them already wearing some animal attributes. aaah i miss them soo muchh. there we're laughing at each other and also giving compliments too. after doing some chitchat we're taking pictures. it's kinda funny looking at ourselves wearing this kind of costumes. so much fun! here you can see. .

there were foods everywhere! so i cant stand to retain to fulfilling my hunger need, hehey so i ate lasagna, pie, roasted chicken, meats and many more! i cant mention it one by one. and then we played fireworks, and it is absolutely so fun!

Then Adhika came and then we're watching Harry Potter and The Goblet of Fire in tv together. do you know that Rob Pattinson who play in Twilight is Cedric Diggory in Harry Potter? hahaha it is. and we all jeering at this young Rob Pattinson even obviously we all the girls are fall in love with Rob in Twilight. hihi.

after this monotonous activity, talk and taking pictures we decide to do the countdown somewhere else. firstly we planned to go to fx but canceled and we're trapped by traffic in Sudirman. however, being together with friends in any situation will be no proble. we face the traffic with laugh and cheers, and we are going down to the streets too seeing fireworks, haha!

whoaa its a lot of fun going down to the streets seeing fire works. oh yeah so this this the moment we're doing the countdown. well then we got tired and decide to go back to Iftitah's house and sleep

that's all! =p

10 facts about me

2009-01-04T20:20:00.000+07:00

one thing for sure, when i fall in love, i do really fall deeply
i'm often watching people's attitude and make some assumption about them, even i know it's a bit unfair haha
the fact about myself that i hate most is the fact that im in love with junk foods, they taste great
even i cant play music, i have a good taste of music
im an impulsive person. somehow i use emotion to face my problems
im trying to make a vision for myself in the future
i want to be a businesswoman who works in fashion industry, maybe i can start by opening a boutique, i hope this dream will come true! amin
i want to be a mature, a independent figure and a person that keep improving as the time goes by (that obviously not really like me right now)
somehow i love to be someone who alone in the crowd, watching people's act is pretty interesting and fascinating
then at last, i want to be a strong person, so then i can be a place to lean on when someone in trouble

well some of it could be the new resolutions for me :)

Intermezzo..

2009-01-04T18:06:00.000+07:00

ada saat dimana salah satu dari kita,kaum manusia yang fana ini mengutuk Tuhan.mengutuk akan pemberianNya yang melekat pada dirinya. seorang manusia itu berkata bahwa ia merasa tidak cukup atas semua yang dimilikinya. ia berkata bahwa ia berhak untuk mendapatkan yang lebih, meskipun sesungguhnya ia sama sekali tidak pantas untuk menyandang karunia semacam itu. sungguh menyedihkan.

ada saat dimana manusia terpuruk dalam kesedihan yang membuatnya berpikir bahwa ini adalah akhir dari hidupnya, akhir dari segalanya. disaat dimana ia mengira bahwa kedua belah kakinya tak mampu untuk menyangga bangkit berdiri, kiranya. sebegitu beratnyakah kehidupan baginya?seolah tidak ada secercah cahaya menyinari celah hatinya. sebetulnya tidak,lebih tepatnya bukannya secercah cahaya yang tidak ada namun yang sesungguhnya tidak ada ialah ketiadaan pintu hati untuk memberi jalan dan ruang masuk bagi cahaya, tidak heran tidak terlihat keberadaan cahaya dalam hatinya. meskipun sesungguhnya cahaya itu memang ada.

adapula seorang manusia lain. manusia yang putih. manusia yang mendekati sempurna. secara keduniaan, manusia yang satu ini sangat jauh dari titik kesempurnaan.pembawaan yang biasa, tutur kata yang biasa, presentasi diri yang biasa memang benar2 tergolong sebagai kriteria yang biasa. seorang manusia biasa. namun secara tidak terduga ke'biasa'an inilah yang memiliki arti sesungguhnya. seseorang yang dapat menghargai dan menganggap hidup dalam ke'biasa'an sebagai sesuatu yang sempurna ialah titik lain yang memukai, secara tak terduga.

seorang manusia yang dapat menyuskuri akan keberadaan dirinya apa adanya adalah manusia yang benar2 sepatutnya menjadi manusia

sebuah analisis singkat mengenai dua hal kontras yang dikomparasikan.
ada baiknya juga untuk melihat ke dalam diri kita sendiri,
manusia yang manakah kita?

whoaaaaaa

2009-01-04T15:04:00.000+07:00

im really worrying my GPA :(

2nd session of PHOTOSHOP!

2009-01-03T22:23:00.000+07:00

like we discuss before, photoshop is a new thing for me. i can make pictures to anything i want. so then lets see my 2nd session of photoshop.

i use kirsten stewart's picture again, i dont know why but maybe twilight fever make me always remember her in my favorite actress list.

firstly it look like this:then i can make it look like :

nice enough i think :)

PHOTOSHOP is cool

2009-01-03T22:01:00.000+07:00

hello hello and hello agaainnn :)

well recently im really into a thing called photoshop :) even actually this thing isnt a new thing for people and it is not a thing that booms out right now, this thing successfully taking my attention.

adobe photoshop is a computer program which can edit pictures into anything we want. we can make something SEEMS better. yeah thats it. i start to try this program when i got nothing to do. especially in this no-ending holiday. i opened youtube and watch several photoshop tutorial. i dont know why but it by seeing the pages in the web seems like people prefer to edit pictures into creepy pictures.

then i start with kirsten stewart's picture.

firstly it look like this :

then it turned to :

well satisfying enough for an amateur :p

first word ;p

2009-01-03T21:52:00.000+07:00

hello there :)

well actually this doesnt really showed up only as a first-single word because this pop out as too much words to count. whatever. mm this idea about writing blog come out when i got nothing to do, with nothing to concern about and with tooo much time. but this succesfully has made me turn out crazy with some kind of thing called emptyness. i feel like i dont live a real human life with it. so i make myself busy doing something, right now writing blog is a very good idea.